I know I’m going home in autumn, but also that I’d rather be here. I say to myself that I am dropping out because I need to be back home with A. Also spending summer in the house is Crackle, who was caught up in The Big Bust, and has to stay down and do youth work as part of her probation. I go sometimes with her to the adventure playground, where the youth look at me sideways, if at all. In the rundown New Farm House we show each other some modest affection and are thrown out: dirty hippies.